Yazdığım Her Romanda, Senaryoda Ebeveynlerimi Suçladım | Aytuğ Akdoğan | TEDxSur

Quick Overview

The speaker, Aytuğ Akdoğan, recounts how his personal history, characterized by a father who was both an intellectual and emotionally distant, shaped his early creative output, leading him to portray characters who were victims or perpetrators of parental cruelty in his early novels and screenplays, before realizing the need to explore healthier dynamics.

Key Points: The speaker acknowledges that his early creative works, including novels and screenplays, consistently featured characters who were victims or perpetrators of parental cruelty, often reflecting his own upbringing. He cites the example of Arthur Schopenhauer, whose mother's perceived cruelty and subsequent suicide influenced his philosophy, drawing a parallel to his own complex relationship with his father. The speaker notes that his father, despite being an intellectual, maintained an emotionally distant relationship, which manifested in the speaker's tendency to write about trauma and emotional harshness. A key realization for the speaker was recognizing that his artistic focus was driven by the need to process the conflict between his father's demanding intellectualism and the lack of emotional warmth. He mentions that his father, Emil Atay, was a film director who shot a film called 'Torino Atı' (The Turin Horse), which dealt with long scenes of suffering. The speaker admits to consciously seeking out and spending time with people whose personalities he disliked, perhaps to understand or process the harshness he experienced. The speaker concludes by stating that he now seeks to create characters who are balanced, peaceful, and capable of love, moving away from the trauma-focused narratives of his past.

Context: The video features a TEDx talk delivered by Aytuğ Akdoğan at TEDxSur, where he discusses the profound influence of his childhood relationship with his parents, particularly his father, on his writing career. He uses the example of philosopher Arthur Schopenhauer and his strained relationship with his mother to frame the discussion about how personal trauma shapes artistic expression, contrasting his earlier dark narratives with his current pursuit of healthier themes.